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Better Today
Feb. 28th, 2019 07:14 pmToday's been a relatively good day. Gotten some art done and should be able to get to detailing the commission tomorrow. Did some new job applications as well and otherwise doing my best to remain focused and productive. Glad to know also that many of my friends are supportive of me, even through hard times like now, and encourage me in all the best ways. I am happy that I'm loved by so many and it helps to give me the strength to keep doing what I need to.
Other happy things are that I've actually learned I like my body, I appreciate it and am comfortable in it finally. It only took 2+ years of hormones! XD But hooray for not having as much physical dysphoria, now I just have to decide if I want to pursue bottom surgery or not. Overall my dysphoria there is muted, but at the same time I've grown less and less interested in having those bits down there, and in turn it seems to make sex a little more awkward for me. I might need to investigate it sooner rather than later for my own sanity there.
My anxiety is also lower thanks to my self medicating but.... At the same time my nightly use of cannabis has also been leading to my memory being fuzzier all in all. I'm going to consider it a worthy enough trade for now, since my anxiety is null, but I might tone down how much weed I do nightly, or adjust it some. It at least does numb the amount of sadness I still feel. But time...
All in all, improvement, moving forward!
Other happy things are that I've actually learned I like my body, I appreciate it and am comfortable in it finally. It only took 2+ years of hormones! XD But hooray for not having as much physical dysphoria, now I just have to decide if I want to pursue bottom surgery or not. Overall my dysphoria there is muted, but at the same time I've grown less and less interested in having those bits down there, and in turn it seems to make sex a little more awkward for me. I might need to investigate it sooner rather than later for my own sanity there.
My anxiety is also lower thanks to my self medicating but.... At the same time my nightly use of cannabis has also been leading to my memory being fuzzier all in all. I'm going to consider it a worthy enough trade for now, since my anxiety is null, but I might tone down how much weed I do nightly, or adjust it some. It at least does numb the amount of sadness I still feel. But time...
All in all, improvement, moving forward!
