Loneliness Part 2

I said it before again, I'm surrounded by friends. I'm popular in some communities, I've got friends online and near. I live with my wingsister and her mate who have been supportive as hell. I have someone I kind of find cute and may pursue down the line.

Economically I'm fine, well off compared to most people. I've got goals, I've got all sorts of things going for me. I've got skills as an artist, I take commissions. I have... a lot. A lot that most people would dream of, and I'm aware of it.

And yet even with everything, I still feel deeply lonely and isolated. Sometimes I sit here and just break down in tears and it becomes a struggle to get my mood back up. I miss things, I try to dwell on the past. I've broken the old cycles that used to happen and more or less stopped the old spirals... and now I'm left with this. Sometimes that urge is so strong I just want to drop everything I have and run away and maybe try to find something where I feel more like I belong, which doesn't make any sense since I am where I belong.

All I know is right now I'm just deeply sad and feel so, so alone.